My Love Letter from God!

MY love letter from God:

To My Dearest BRIDE of Christ:

You are My crown jewel... i know there are many times your don't feel like You are royalty,
my beloved, but you are!!!!
How you feel does not define who you are....
You are My treasure and the love of My life....
everyday your feelings may change , but Mine never will.
Nothing can take away your royal position, for it is seaaled by MY blood. Now walk in your true identity and never doubt again that you are MY CHOSEN one to reign for such a time as this, as My princess bride

Love, Your prince
who choose you

" but You are a choosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light " 1peter 2:9

Love Remains The Same

Today, I Can't Fight the Pain...

I know that there are people who tire of the pain that beats in my heart every day. They tire of hearing the hurt. I can't apologize any longer for not being able to hold it in. It's something I feel every day.

This precious boy, the only nephew I've known, will forever live in my heart. There is nothing or anything that can take his place.

I feel like a pile of crap for crying on the days I don't have my kids. I shouldn't. They are still here. They still come home to mommy. Major, though in a MUCH MUCH better place, we all, every person in our family, misses him and wants him here. Holiday's aren't the same. Family gatherings aren't the same. Our lives will never be the same.

Major, I miss you. I know you are in heaven, a place far better than the cold of this world. A place where you will never know pain or hurt and for that I am glad. This world can be a terrible place....but if you were here, I know that we would all do everything we could to shelter you from the world. There is so much love in my heart that I never got to give to you. There are so many hugs and kisses that I never got to love you with. AS I look through these pictures that honor your life, I see you in Kory's clothes. Clothes that I held on to so that you could wear them...still to this day, I can't give Kory's clothes away...they remain in a box for no one is precious enough to have them to other than you. It's silly, I know...but I get so much joy from passing these things down to you and your sisters. There isn't enough money in the world to take place of being blessed to give them to you. I love you buddy!! I always will!!!!

I hate today...and no one understands...

When You Get Into a Tight Place.....

"When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you,

till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer,

never give up then,

for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn...

God will show up,

that is the appointed time He has set,

as long as you have stayed in faith believing."

Angel ~ Sara McLaughlin

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness
that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here